April 19, 2018

Thursday
Romans 12:1-2

Jonathan Holbert

I grew up attending church every Sunday. The Bible was always second nature to me and I knew how to go “through the motions.” As the years went on, I started to realize I was only “believing” because that’s what I had been taught to do. In middle school, I started suffering from depression. That led me down a path of self-destruction. Eventually I decided to walk away from the church and any belief I may have had. I convinced myself the Bible was false, and labeled myself an atheist. I walked that road for several years and tried to fix my issues on my own. But they kept getting worse. Counselors and doctors couldn’t fix me and I couldn’t fix myself.

My loving parents finally found a camp for people headed down the wrong path and I agreed to go. It was there that the Lord called me back to Him. I felt His love and immediately realized the mistakes I had been making and surrendered to Him. Since that day, I have not suffered from the old issues I once did. It was an immediate healing and transformation of my mind and heart. I am so grateful for God’s grace and mercy and willingness to forgive wretched sinners like me. Every day I continue to follow the Lord. And though many times I fail, He is here to pick me up and use me to do His work.